My passions are scary and exciting

Future is unpredictable, Uncertain and absolutely controllable. But to control the future you have to take massive action. To take massive action and control your future you need to know what you want in the future. And knowing what you want from your future and what you want to become is what scared me. Over the past two-three years, I have gone through so many changes that I am not sure what I want to do anymore.

So many Passions

I started out as a software developer and I flourished in my job. I am still going strong in the job getting good work and great opportunities but I am not satisfied. And I am definitely not going to do this for the next 40-50 years as my professional career. As soon as I started to feel this I began looking for ways that I can spruce up my job so that I would still have the safety of job and have fun at the same time. So I started learning new languages and technologies to get into a new job. But that Idea was short-lived because I was not working on it passionately and was wasting more time. Which I realized was because I did not enjoy it.

So I changed my plan to become a blogger I started writing on Medium and pretty soon started this blog as well. Initially, I planned to write one post every day but again learned pretty soon that writing is very tough. Writing a new post every day requires a lot of planning and preparation, So I settled on a casual routine to write every week as many times as I can. One thing about blogging that I am sure about is that I genuinely enjoy it, which matters the most.

Another one of my passion that I enjoy the most is Photography. This started out as a hobby and has over time become a very important part of my life. This is an activity of my life which I can spend hours on and still feel like doing more. Which brings me to the current dilemma in my life.

Which brings me to the current dilemma in my life.

I don’t Know where I am headed

Having so many passions and ideas confuses me, it makes me uncertain as to what I want to pursue or more importantly what I should pursue. But on the other hand having this many passions excite me as well, because the most asked question on the right now is “How do I find my passion?”. And here I am sitting with a clear idea that I have so many passions and the ability to pursue them. And as Gary Vaynerchuk says in his very clear message:

You have to taste the berries and hope none of them are poisounous. –Gary Vaynerchuk

So I am glad that I am able to have a taste of all these hobbies and am able to identify which one I like better and choose from them as my thing. But still, until I figure that I out I have no idea where I am headed, What I am going to do which is scary.

So I am now going to get over this fear of mine and actually start paying more attention to doing rather than wasting time. I will now actually try and figure which passion of mine is more enjoyable and sustainable and then I will simply stick to it and give it my 100% attention. And then I will simply hope that it pays off!!

Do you know what your passions are? Do you know that one activity that excites you the most? The one activity which makes you want to give a 100%? If yes then share it with us in the comments below.